I Live Hard But I Rock Harder

Chronicles in KL

2009-06-24T09:59:00.000-07:00

I havent been bloging for sometime again...no choice i'm a hot and cold person...lol up and down..on and off...

so just the updates of my life in KL...

ever since I came to Kl...so many things in my life had change...most of the weekdays i only work then weekends is the time where i go everywhere and just explore...before i stay in Kl i tohugh Kl is still malaysia nothing much to see but is not true as i'm for longer time i began to feel that there is a lot of things yet to be known by me.

I really love Kl ppl's fashion sense...sometimes just walking at the street at KL i seen some of the most stunning fashions around that i never saw b4 in pg...Kl ppl are really daring to dress up wherever they go out...At Bukit Bintang i always saw a lot of Malays that dress up so cool but just to sit in the streets in a big group just to pick up on any `chicks' that passes by...somehow i feel that they are just too free...lol.

I just started working on my company in Kl for 2 months that day i talk with my clique and ask her that after 3 motnhs they will me and increase my pay or not...then she said got an ex gal clique she work for 6 months and they still havent confirm her..than I was like..WAT?!!! will i get the same? then she said won't cuz at once i enter only they ask me to out for shooting and let me handle some of the important projects...she said last time the ex gal clique never had that b4 and she only handle non important stuff...I feel really blessed that my 2 bosses really trust me and believe that I can produce work at a certain standard. so now i'm waiting for them to increase my pay if not..is hard to continue working there anymore due to the expenses in Kl is so high...

I'm currently attending City Harvest Church at KL, Sunway...it was really an awesome church..on my first time i get there i couldn't enter because it was too jamm pack cuz there is speaker from Australia that came call Pat Mesiti..so i was kinda dissapointed at the first time i came that i couldn't even enter...so i head for back and came back again next morning and i get to go in...and it was awesome!! the church sit aorund like 600 ppl on that morning so after the service receive a call from my friend's friend that bring me out for lunch and from there i get to know more and more ppl...the next 2 following weeks was a meeting with Pastor Kong Hee which is really amazing...WO!!!! mind blowing the word that he preached...i will post up blog on what he shared soon...there are 3 days.. and i came for all...friday night the first night i came at 7.40 it so many ppl are lining up to enter...WOW!!! even ppl line up to go church...HAHAHa is was like 900 ppl that nights...and 200 ppl outside of the church still listening to the preaching through the video..it was amazing and the it happens the same on the next following 2 meetings...then later on it was Pastor Andrew Gray from City Christian Church...during his preaching i write till my hand can't go any faster...all the words that came out are like diamonds that i need take down..and He is really good...FIRE ME UP!!! so i all go on that i spend most of my time with church people...and Church Gala Night is coming up on July...is getting exciting with around 1300ppl..so i believe is going to be an awesome night...

i'm glad that I make a step to come to Kl if not i will be miss out a whole lot of things and mgiht not be able to meet so many great people that I get to know now cuz I honest believe that every meeting is a Miracle...so I have no regrets coming o Kl is just that in my heart there is a Ghost of penang....I really miss Penang and i'm going bakc this Sat so see all my family and all my friends...WOO!!! although time is sort but is cool...

Revelation of Masturbation

2009-06-19T06:58:00.000-07:00

First of all i just want to said that I own no rights to this article and it is not written by or gather by me..it all belongs to Rev. Kong Hee from City Harvest Church, Singapore and I find this article really reveals a lot of understanding of what every man and women has been strungling all along so check out this article is really MIND BLOWING!!!

What’s Up With Masturbation?

The word “masturbation” is thought to have been derived from the Greek word mezea, which means “penises.” It could have also been derived from the Latin words, manus (“hand”) and turbare (“to disturb”). According to the Microsoft Encarta Dictionary, masturbation is to “give yourself or somebody else sexual pleasure by stroking the genitals, usually to orgasm.” Merriam-Webster’s Collegiate Dictionary states that “the stimulation can be performed manually, by other types of bodily contact (short of sexual intercourse), by use of objects or tools, or by some combination of these methods.”

There are archeological records of humans masturbating that go back as far as 6,000 B.C. In the land of Sumer, often known as the “Cradle of Civilization,” the ancient Sumerians believed that masturbation was a technique used to increase a man’s sexual prowess. It was viewed as part of normal activities for daily life, neither to be shunned away from nor considered taboo. The ancient Egyptians viewed masturbation superstitiously while the ancient Greeks were rather casual about it.

At the other end of the spectrum, masturbation was considered illegal in some societies. The 17th century law code of the Puritan colony of New Haven, Connecticut, considered masturbation as a crime punishable by the death penalty. The 18th century philosopher, Immanuel Kant, viewed masturbation as a violation of universal moral law. Until today, the Roman Catholic Church still officially condemns masturbation as a mortal sin.

The American researcher Alfred Kinsey (1894-1956) and others estimated that during the mid-20th century, at least 92% of all males and 70-80% of all females have indulged in masturbation at some point in their lives. European studies show comparable figures to support Kinsey’s research. Kinsey also found that 40% of men and 30% of women in relationships (marriage or dating) masturbate regularly. In his 2005 book, The Sexual Man, Dr. Archibald Hart reveals that 61% of married Christian men masturbate.

The December 10, 2008 issue of The Sun reports that the “Gossard Big M Survey” done a year earlier found that 92% of UK women aged 18-30 masturbate. Two-thirds of women admit to pleasuring themselves three times a week, with women in London finding time for four sessions every seven days. A 2004 study done in Toronto, Canada, found that males begin masturbating as early as 10 years old while some females (6%) may begin before the age of six.

Some of the generally accepted benefits of masturbation include the following: (1) It is a good way of relieving sexual tension that can build up over time, especially for people without partners, or whose partners are not willing or available to have sex. (2) It is a safe sexual alternative for people who wish to avoid pregnancy and the dangers of sexually transmitted diseases. (3) It is necessary when a man must give a semen sample for infertility testing or for sperm donation. (4) It is a standard prescription given by sex therapists to treat sexual dysfunction in an adult, helping a person to experience orgasm (often in women) or to delay orgasm (often in men).

The big question here is: can a Christian masturbate? Is it morally right or wrong? Those who argue against it claim that masturbation is unnatural, and may result in God’s judgment on the body later on in life (in the form of physical ailments). Others claim that it is an irresponsible means to attain sexual satisfaction without the “burden” of commitment. Spiritual giants like C.S. Lewis and John Calvin were both strongly against it.

What about those who are not averse to it? Mark Driscoll, the preaching pastor at the 7,500-member Mars Hill Church in Seattle, Washington, was quoted as having said this in one of his video lectures: “In marriage is it okay for one to masturbate the other? Yes, as long as it promotes oneness between a couple … But if you are someone who masturbates in a nonaddictive, non-lustful, non-pornographic way and you are single, it is not a sin.”

Surprisingly, the conservative evangelical and founder of Focus On The Family, Dr. James Dobson, was reported to have said, “99% of boys do it and the other 1% are lying. If we tell boys it is wrong and that God disapproves, what happens to those who aren’t able to stop? They grow up thinking God hates them or that they are some miserable, shameful, dirty creatures that belong under a rock. Therefore, let them do it.” In his book, Preparing for Adolescence, Dr. Dobson says, “It is my opinion that masturbation is not much of an issue with God.”

What does the Bible say?
The solitary Scripture most opponents of masturbation often quote is Genesis 38:9. It is an account of God judging Onan for spilling his semen onto the ground. Many of the early church saints, like Jerome and Clement of Alexandra, had used this story as an example of why masturbation should be banned. However, a closer, objective study of this passage would show that the context here has nothing to do with masturbation. In the days of the patriarchs, if a man died childless, the custom then was for his brother to take his wife, and the children produced by this second marriage were considered as the children of the first husband, and consequently inherit his possessions and extend his lineage. As such, Onan was supposed to raise up a seed for his deceased brother. Instead of doing that, he took advantage of his sister-in-law, Tamar, for his own sexual gratification, but didn’t want the responsibility to father her a child. God immediately judged Onan for his refusal to raise up an offspring for his brother.

The Bible also talks about “nocturnal emission,” an ejaculation during sleep by a male (Lev. 15:16-17; 22:4; Deut. 23:9-11). Today, we commonly call this a “wet dream,” or a spontaneous orgasm. Whenever they are mentioned in Scripture, it has more to do with Old Testament health and hygiene than what constitutes a sin.

What is my personal opinion regarding masturbation? Theologically, the Scripture is relatively silent about it although its practice stretches back to biblical times. None of the verses above outrightly name masturbation as a sin. As far as I am concerned, the jury is still out. To me, the act of self-stimulation is worrying only if it leads to the following three problems:
Pornography. Pornography has long been condemned and prohibited in the belief that it depraves and corrupts both minors and adults, and that it leads to the commission of sex crimes. Pornography is often used hand-in-hand with masturbation to stimulate the imagination as well as the genitals. In a Kinsey Institute survey, 72% of the respondents said they used porn to masturbate for physical release.In their award-winning bestseller, Porn Trap, sex therapists, Wendy and Larry Maltz, relate the harmful effects pornography has on an individual:

“A relationship with porn can act like an affair. It can take time and energy away from an existing intimate relationship. People who use porn often operate with the same kind of secrecy and deception as someone having a sexual affair. When a porn user is confronted by a partner, there is often denial, lying and attempts to cover up the wrongdoing. Without realizing it, maintaining a “love affair” with porn can become more important than staying connected to someone in real life. Also, if you use porn regularly, the mental images and scenarios of porn can keep playing in your mind during sex, making it hard to feel connected and intimate with the real person in your life.”

Compulsive Masturbation. A compulsive masturbator may self-pleasure an inordinate number of times a day. The world record is reported to be 36 times over a 24-hour period! However, excessive masturbation can lead to neurochemical imbalances in the body and bring about continual fatigue, concentration and memory losses. Masturbation addiction can also lead to other forms of sex addictions such as:
● Multiple sexual partners
● Consistent use of pornography
● Phone or computer sex (cybersex)
● Prostitution, or use of prostitutes
● Exhibitionism
● Voyeurism (watching others) and/or stalking
● Sexual harassment
● Molestation
● Rape

To test if you have a problem with compulsive masturbation or other sex addictions, try the following Self-Assessment Test from Sex Addicts Anonymous: www.sexaa.org/IsSAAForYou/SelfAssessment.

Resentment in Spouse. When a married partner individually indulges in masturbation, especially when it is done in secrecy, the spouse is no longer the only source of sexual gratification. When one partner feeds his or her sexual appetite with masturbation, leaving the other partner sexually unfulfilled, it could cause feelings of resentment and loss of respect over time. Sexual pleasure involves considering the feelings of your spouse. If one partner is uncomfortable with the fact that the other is masturbating, especially when it is done outside of the couple’s lovemaking, both of you should have a radically honest discussion together. Come to a mutual agreement that both partners are comfortable with and genuinely happy about.

Kl REVOLUTION!!!

2009-05-11T08:11:00.000-07:00

hoho...It's been so so long ever since i updated my blog...cuz has been too lazy to even write about anything...

I'm currently based in Kl for already due to that i had spontaneously gotten a job when i was on a holiday trip to kl and I just though to went for interview for fun and didn't know..I REALLY GOT IT!!! so after that I went on home to Penang to do all my packing...everything was just so sudden couldn't even said goodbye to some of my friends...I was just back there for 4 days and once again i got to rolled down to to Kl cuz my was asked to start immediately....so i spend all my precious 5 days in Penang with my family and all my friends...I'm glad that i can at least met everyone that is important to me before I leave to downtown south...they were my church member's, college friends, my HENG TAI!! and...couldn't name all...I have to said that is was really heavy for me leave Penang and MY CHURCH!! that i have been rocking for 2 years which is really personal to me and meeting up with all my friends makes it even more heavy to even leave but in the end I still have to go cuz there is not future for Graphic Design in Penang honestly especially fresh grats like me...I have to say that i Really REALLY GONNA MISS PENANG big time!! cuz i have nearly everything that I need here...so some rhyme = Leaving is Heavy but I Know Destiny Awaits me...

So finally the day has come for me to go downtown to Kl already after all the sweet last minutes moments I had in the place where live are made easy = Penang...lol...so i reach at thursday night and get ready for the first day of work...BOOM!!! the 1st day is here...hmm everything is just normal i finally get to work in an advertising company though is small but is like it because I get to learn loads of things that going straight into In-House Designing...if you know what I mean and there are also art directors to teach me stuff...which once i tohugh i know a lot but actually i don't know anything...hahaha!!! is better than when i use to work in a video production company which is really hard work and low pay...have to carry all the equipments that is damm heavy weight in 10 to 30KGS but I admit that after 1 month of working there...i got some shape on my body...lol.. but screw it cuz is just not what I wanted to do...

Now my lifestyle in Kl is a total spin around from what I use to have in Penang. Now i no longer had late nights sleep at 5am and wake up the other morning is like i'm hung over and feel damm sleep in the morning but feels real active at night!! now in Kl i sleep at 11 or 12pm before i got my WIGGY (wimax broadband) and I have to say that is impossible to happen when i was still in Penang. No more late night supper adn the hardest things is not much friends in Kl...now everything I do like eating, walkin, taking bus or whatever also i do alone but i ain't spreading my sorrowness here to you all...hahaha..but that is whole new exp for me to life independantly cuz all my life i never really went out of Penang to be based somewhere else...I have to say that God has been doing some tiny tiny miracles in live in Kl...without God is really hard for me to carry on...He provides for me time after time without me even realising sometimes and the best of all is that got a room with a Christian Landlady which i didn't even call her and she suddenly call me and ask if i wanted a room..that is a MIRACLE!!! but i got to share that on the first day i came to Kl near Pudu i was having lunch there is Singaporean Guy(might be imposter) came up to me and my friend who come with me to Kl ask us if we would like to sponsor his people to go down to Singapore and beat UP some people...I mean...hahaha wat does that got to do with me and he keep on asking where are we from and we answer we are PENANG KIA!!! so in the end he said we had no money so he just said nevermind and leave...HHAHAHA maybe this dude really in need of money to get back to singapore and trying to set us up for us to free sponsor him...but in the end is all cool...It was HArdcore just on the first hour in Kl to meet that kinda of Shit...

Wat i have open my eyes to somemore is i got a photo shooting from my company to when to KUMON(some kids education association). I have to admit that I have never in my life so into kids and play with them and show them the love they deserve...they kids there we so so cute and well behave....it was the greatest group of kids that I had ever meet and they were like in between age of 6 to 11...now that i realised why God says we have to have a child like faith is because kids are just so innocent unless we adult exposed them to the crazy world their young age and they will end up grow being a broke child...Father's love of God is needed to raise a good child with out it a child will surelly grow up broken just like a lot of us...and one thing that really caught my attention is a 10 year old gal...she was so shy back at the photoshooting but after that ..guess what happen..she took out her Hp which is much much better model than mine...hahaha and put on LADY GAGA's just dance and Britbey Spear's Circus...and SHe choreography her own dance to that song!!! I was really amaze man...hohoho kids nowadays...at the age of 10 they know LADY GAGA...when i was 10 i don't even know what is any of the artist that I know now...

so that all for this post i guess the record of the blog that I had written the most...CHEERS!!!

Tagged by Yivon

2009-01-17T21:34:00.000-08:00

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
Yup it matters a lot cuz i'm against smoking.

2. How about drinking?
Drink is alright for me...but i ain't into drinking also.

3. Do you like someone you can't have?
Use to have but is the pass now...i'm moving on with the future...

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? Who

hmm sure why not...i dunno who is that.

5. What’s your favourite sport?
Swimming and Dancing and also ROCK N ROLL!!!

6.Its Saturday night, you're home alone, what do you do?
Hmm this haven't happen for like 2 years already cuz i dont' stay at home at Saturday night..but if i were to stay i guess i will be watching some movies, listen to some songs and being bored.

7. Do you like roller coasters?
nope...i never have a ride of roller coaster before in my life.

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
I will go with the flow on who God is sending me.

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be? What kind of date?
Horikita Maki...she is cute...anywhere doesn't matter...

10. What are you doing this weekend?
Stay at home my family.

11. What is your favourite restaurant?
Anywhere that serves great american food cuz i like western lifestyle but not to forget with great atmosfere and music.

12. Have you ever hugged someone?
Yeah!!!.

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
nah..

14. Do you like anyone right now?
yea...

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Personality and the looks...

16. Which do you prefer, beach or mountains?
Beach cuz i like the lifestyle of beach but mountain is fine too is just that too lazy to hike up..

17. What kind of phone do you have?
Nokia..

18. Computer or laptop?
Both is fine but i prefer computer..

19. Jeans or sweats?
Jeans for sure...

20. Which year has been the best so far?
2008...a lot of happening during this year...

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
21ST!!!

22. What should you be doing right now?
helping my dad on some thing.

23.What is your favourite TV show?
I don't watch TV anymore now.

24. What's been your last purchase?
Nasi Kandar.

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
Never.

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
Nope also.

27. What do you do when you're at home?
Playing guitar, sing, online, watch movies, chat and sleep

28. What is your favourite subject?
Definately is Design.

29. What's the best things happened on you?
I get to know God as my Heavenly Father that is my ultimate source of carrying on my life.

30. 10 persons to tag:
WillazZ

Minny

Peter

Sam

Eng

Miss J

Stephanie S

Melvin

Liz

Skye

Meaningful Quotes Part 2

2009-01-13T07:09:00.000-08:00

HELLO people once again i'm gonna blog on some of the most meaningful quotes that gather all over anywhere that i found...hope some of the quotes will mean something to you when u read it..

ENjoy!!!

Life resembles a novel more often than novels resemble life.

Love can touch us one time and last for whole life

Hope is both the earliest and the most indispensable virtue inherent in the state of being alive. If life is to be sustained hope must remain, even where confidence is wounded, trust impaired.

That it will never come again is what makes life so sweet.

Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.

Love—is anterior to Life—Posterior—to Death—Initial of Creation, andThe Exponent of Earth—

The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.

People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built.

The times that I spend with you, every single minute of it means treasure to me

Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed.

Life is so constructed that an event does not, cannot, will not, match the expectation.

How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.

Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.

People living deeply have no fear of death.

Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death.

Because I have loved life, I shall have no sorrow to die.

True religion is real living; living with all one's soul, with all one's goodness and righteousness.

Life is rather like a tin of sardines - we're all of us looking for the key.

And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.

Life is just a chance to grow a soul.

How far you go in life depends on you being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving and tolerant of the weak and the strong. Because someday in life you will have been all of these

Life is short and we have never too much time for gladdening the hearts of those who are traveling the dark journey with us. Oh be swift to love, make haste to be kind.

Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.

My Convo

2008-12-23T03:05:00.000-08:00

Finally i get to post up the pics of my Convo that happen last month on the 16th of November...

This convo can be know as the biggest event ever held in my College with more than

100 over graduates...

this is me taking my Diploma....

finally i had graduated after 2 years of studying...lol...

The overview pic of all the graduates....

Some random group pic before taking our cert...

group pic with my lecturer...
Miss Chris Choo....lol

The 8 man standing my class 067...

group pic with fashion chicks....

a pic with my family...

me and jasmine...

me and cheryl...

me and ninja girl...

Christiana...

me and gothic chick Ann...

with lee kee and ian fen....

and with the one and only

Miss Chris Choo...lol

me with my Mexican lecturer that teaches fine art..

Ricky Chavez...

with Miss J's 2 friends

and with my brother in Christ...

Moses Khor but he don't part the red sea...lol

Me and PeI PeI...

with my emo friend CS but not (Chui Sui) or counter strike...

When Rock and Rap Collabs...

equal RapRock!!!!

with the Mariah Lisa...hahaha...

the last 9 man standing my class acting cool during the night dinner...

random pics...

random pic with Mervin and Ann...

the 2 Emcees during Graduation Exhibition....

the 3 person Me, Myself and I

random group pic..

near whole class pic....

a damm crazy group pic...like this one....

me with Rebx...

me and Lee Kee...the back lighting is really nice....

group pic with my dance instructor...

Me and PeI again....

with one of EAA top model dunno her name....

My Rocking brother...

ROCK AND ROCK!!!

my craziest friend in my class...

SAMMY!!!

with KC Eng...

overall had a good time during the convo cuz there is not more work just sitting down and enjoy the food and the Fashion Show....

Meaningful Quotes!!!

2008-11-27T04:47:00.000-08:00

these are all of the most meaningful quotes that I ever seen so far...it has very deep of meaningful...so check it out...

just because my eyes don't tear,
doesn't mean that my heart doesn't cry
& just because I come off strong,
doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

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Do you know where {heaven} is? [I pointed to him and said softly...] "In his arms"

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Love that we cannot have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest.

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Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am...isn't me.

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My head is saying "fool, forget him", my heart is saying "don't let go" from Grease

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Real love stories never have happy endings. Because real love stories never end

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I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I will stop missing you.

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Sometimes I wish I could blink and wake up five years from now, other times I wish I could wake up yesterday...

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For once in my life, I don't have to try to be happy. When I'm with you, it just happens

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I'm afraid to close my eyes
because I might think of you

I'm afraid to open them
because I might see you

I'm afraid to move my lips
because I might speak of you

I'm afraid to listen
cause I might hear your voice

I'm afraid to love but I have no choice

And no matter what I do
I still love you

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Why is it that with every quote I read your name pops into my head

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Men are like wine - some turn to vinegar, but the best improve with age - from Pope John XXIII

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Sometimes people run away, just to see if anyone cares enough to follow

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It's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen. But it's even harder to give up, especially when it's everything you ever wanted

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When you love someone you can tell. But when you are in love with someone, everyone else can tell

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He gave her 12 roses, 11 real and one fake, and said "I'll love you until the last rose dies."

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Love is when you don't want to go to sleep because reality is better than a dream

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Love is like war
easy to start
hard to end
impossible to forget

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And when I met him, no other guys seemed to matter anymore...

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If you can't get someone out of your head, maybe they're supposed to be there

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Every love song makes me cry, because every love song reminds me of you

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Love is like playing the piano, first you must learn to play by the rules, then you forget the rules and play from your heart

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Sometimes I wonder if life is really worth it, then I look at your smile and I know it is

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If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were

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Never frown when you're sad, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile

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No person is worth your tears, and the one who is won't make you cry

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If you love someone don't put their name in a heart, but put it in a circle. A heart can be broken, but a circle goes on forever

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Some people say you only fall in love once, but every time I hear your voice I fall in love all over again

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I'm jealous of every girl that has ever hugged you, because for one moment, they had my whole world in their arms

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The worst way to miss someone is to have them sitting right next to you and know you can never have them

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The spaces between you fingers were made so another person's could fill them

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One day I caught myself smiling for no reason, then I realized I was thinking of you

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Trying to forget someone you loved is like trying to remember someone you never knew

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My heart aches completely, every hour, everyday, and only when I'm with you does the pain go away

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In a room full of people, you're always the first one I look for

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I don't think you realize how easily you make me smile

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Why am I afraid to lose you when you aren't even mine?

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A million words would not bring you to me, I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried

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I keep telling myself that I don't miss you and I don't love you, hoping someday I'll believe it

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He's the kind of boy who makes me look forward to Mondays

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I'm the type of person who will burst out laughing in dead silence because of something that happened yesterday

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A good friend will bail you out of jail, a best friend will be sitting next to you saying: "Dude, that was freakin' awesome!"

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Fat kids are harder to kidnap

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Forgiving is not forgetting, it's letting go of the pain

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Don't hit kids! No, seriously. They have guns now

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Isn't it funny how day-by-day nothing changes, but then when you look back, everything is different.

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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass… It's about learning to dance in the rain

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If you're going through hell, keep going

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Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why we call it the present.

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Imagination is more important than knowledge

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In three words I can sum up what I've learned about life: It goes on…

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Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil

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Be optimistic. All the people you hate are going to eventually die

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I want to do my part to make the world a better place, but murder is illegal…

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You cry. I cry.
You laugh. I laugh.
You jump off a cliff. I laugh even harder.

My Mom's Europe Trip - PARIS

2008-11-17T08:28:00.000-08:00

PARIS BABY!!!!

just last month my mom went to Paris when i was jsut about to have my exhibition and sadly i don't get to go...

but is alright at least i got to see the photos of all the most romantic city in the world

PARIS

the city of light

Eiffel Tower to begin with the symbol of Paris

this is the view from the top of Eiffel Tower the view is just amazing..WOW!!

This as well

this is the cruise that travel around the river at night to view the Eiffel Tower at night...

this is also the top view of Eiffel Tower....everything is so nice there...

nice greenish landscape

some of the buildings at night and is very nice with the trees...

no idea why it looks blue...i didn't edit this....

the people there

amazing sculptural cravings...there is no way that people of this generation can produce something like this anymore....

the MCD there...so different from ours here...lol...

the shopping complex there...Pavilion is bit like this....

if anyone seen savage garden's trully, madly, deeply's video u will see this....is taken in Paris itself...

below Eiffel Tower...

you can only view this BIG streamer from the top of Eiffel Tower

night cruise....

take it to the streets....

there is no way it is call the most romantic city in the world without street kissing..lol...

the coffee shop europe style by the walkway....

the cinemas....House Bunny...HAHAHA

once again nice cravings...

top view...

the cops there....hahahaha way cooler than ours here..

COMING UP

NEXT is

SWITZERLAND

the country side paradise....

My Heart Longs For You MV - Radius

2008-10-27T23:51:00.000-07:00

Finally my first ever music video for my first ever studio recorded song is done...that is call My Heart Longs For You...is a song i had written since the begining of last year but until this year july only i had a chance to record it...credit to Silas Low for all the recording helps and Willazz for helping me to make this video possible is a 2 man show...lol...i wanted to thank everyone that has make this possible for me...thanks God for everything in the process has been amazing it just fits!!!

Lyrics

My Heart Longs For You - Radius

Verse 1:
Spending my life searching for the things
that I though could fill my heart
Spending my time doing all the things
that I though could fill my desire

Pre Chorus:
And still is empty inside me
my heart longs for you

Chorus:

Nothing can fill the emptiness in my heart
But only Your love can fill and make me whole

Verse 2:
Spending my trust all onto man
that will actually fail me
Spending my time chasing all the things
that will never last forever

Pre Chorus:
And still is empty inside me
my heart longs for you

Chorus: x2

Nothing can fill the emptiness in my heart
But only Your love can fill and make me whole

Bridge:
My heart longs for Your presence
I want to feel You
My heart cries out for Your love
I’m desperate for You

Chorus: x3
Nothing can fill the emptiness in my heart
But only Your love can fill and make me whole

Song Definition
The message in this song is we all as humans have emptiness and brokenness is our heart because we didn’t received enough love and acceptance in our society. For this reason we tend to go and look the things in the world that we think could actually fill the emptiness of our hearts but all of these are just temporary fulfillment and non lasting. Only the unconditional and unfailing love from God the Father can fill this emptiness in our heart

MY HEART LONGS FOR YOU

Recorded by : Silas Low

Mixed by :Silas Low

Vocals : Radius

Guitars : Radius

Bass : Silas Low

Drums : Program

Arrangement : Radius

Lyrics : Radius

MY HEART LONGS FOR YOU MUSIC VIDEO

Directed by : Radius

Cameras : Willazz

Editting: Radius

Special Thanks to : Daniel Khoo, Nick Chooi , Jasen Gan, Sam Ooi,

Choo Eng, Khan Khan, Peter, Moses Khor and most of all

God the Father

Mean Machine 2008 at Autocity

2008-10-27T06:29:00.000-07:00

CARS CARS CARS!!!

just yesterday me, Will, Daniel and Nick went over to Autocity for 1 of the biggest automotive event held in Malaysia that is Mean Machine 2008 = M2

so check it out amazing cars and also hot models

Pioneer Robot Design..cool one...

models on that day....

models again....

models once again....lol...to get the omph started!!

MONSTER!!!

VOLCANO!!!

Great cars all...

like this one...damm sporty look.....!!

the content...

the back view...

row of all the cars....

CARS CARS!!!

not much comment cuz i dunno much about cars but i enjoy watching those cars....

here comes the classic cars...

Nippon design cars...

hot chick...

she posted for me to take....LOL!!

minor drifting....

she got a cool tattoo on her back...

will with his peace sign....

innocent eyes...

babes again...

have u every feel like

DRINK N DRIVE?..here is it

some dunno which babes posing....

with it acomplisments awards....

4 viewing screen just...amazingly cool.

Shell girls...

My Favourite of the day!!!

Will trying on how does it feel like on F1 cars...

after that we head on to Ice Ice Baby for dinner and set off back home....

our man...Daniel Khoo...

i got STUNNED...LOL~!

Genting Trip

2008-07-08T11:13:00.000-07:00

Just before my last sem start i went for a 1 day trip to genting with my classmates...

We start our journey at 10.30 and reach there at 4am in the morning....

and by the time step out of the bus it was damm COLD!!!!

12 Degree Celcius!!!!

we are just hungry at that time and somemore is damm cold...

we head on to MCD and on that time we only got breakfast...

some morning coffee cuz the whole night we didn't sleep...

just about to finsih our breakfast...at 5AM!!!

some pics shoot before we leave MCD...we are still roomless cuz waiting for another classmate to bring the booking number..

so no choice we have to wonder around till she reach at 11am from 5am....is a long time!!!

the mist is so thick....hardly can see things around...but the smell of the mist is strong....

self portrait....

after all the pictures shooting we are getting tired due to not enough food and no sleep....

so we head on to some restaurant and

SLEEP.....

Down....

totally down...no energy at all...

after that my classmate reach and we had a room already....

then we head on to the outdoor theme park to start our outdoor games....

ian fen and lee kee with dunno what character.....

a very big energizer building....

once again is them....

but this time is us...sitting on the ancient car....

all we can do is just watch this but no of us go for this.,...

a section of break from the games...we took pic with this bus

yo...hooohoh this is scary....but is fun....feels like ur heart want to come out when it goes down....

group pic

another group pic

one of the last game i play before going...

there are still a lot of games we play but could snap pics of it....

so that is all for genting trip...

A hug of Love....

2008-07-07T09:37:00.000-07:00

There was once during a year in the Oylimpic Games...it happens to be a running match...where 2 person compete against each other...so the game starts and both of the runners run with all their life in order to reach the finishing line first...1 candidate is the champion always, he had won a lot of running competition...and another candidate is he has won his way to compete with this champion...as the race goes on...it ends with the competitor defeats the champion...

after the match the competitor went and hug the champion that had just lost his match...

and he found that the lost champion was crying...

the whole crowd was saying that he can't accept his lost of the match....

but the lost champion stand up and said that....

I cry is not because I have lost this match

is because....

no one has ever hug me like this before in my life....

thanks for reading this...i hope it really touches your heart...that winning isn't the main concern...

Langkawi Vacation

2008-05-12T05:29:00.000-07:00

I BEEN WANTING!!! to update this for a 3 months already finally today i get to update....hahaha...

Let me take u to the tour in Langkawi...lol...

First of all we plan the whole thing only the day b4 and we had no preparation at all so on that day itself we woke up at 6 then reach jeti there at 7 but the ticket shop has yet to open so we head on to get some food.

still not sure whether there is ticket or not yet.....

the morning street....

But finally after we had our BREAK FAST we headed back and thank God we got the ticket and we head straight to the ship after al lthe prosedures....

on the way to our ship....

the inside of the ship...kinda crowded many ppl is heading to Langkawi on that day...

Sammy getting ready to roll to Langkawi with the Sign!!!lol...

Some camming (not camwhoring) before we got ready to roll...

The look of the outside scene from the window of the ship...

from left:bernard, chin seng and sammy having a great time with the winds

continuing to enjoy the nice wind...

the very gentle side of sammy...hahahaha...

perspective pose of the 4 of us...

the view of the top of the ship...

Sammy doing some welcoming headline as soon as we rech the port of Langkawi..

Finally we are here...

our first meal in Langkawi....KENNY ROGERS then the second day...we had KFC cuz there is not much food that is like PG..even finding a mamak stall is very hard..in the end the 3rd day...Sammy's grandma treat...hahahaha

after lunch we head to underwater world....

this actaully the birds that is in the underwater w0rld..goose...not 100% underwater world...

very nice yellow bird...

now this is the real underwater...a seal that lay upside down...

Doesn't this looks familiar to one animated film?..SURF UP!!!

a yellow hair penguin sleeping like a bullet waiting to be release....

i like this shoot!!!
Sammy giving a little peace sign!!!
Legendary Penguin....lol

aren't the baby sea lions cute?!!

suddenly saw this super unique sea horse...looks legendary...

after that we head to the 3rd most beautiful beaches that is Pulau Cenang...

Romantic sunset...

nice sunset with the parachute!!!

the beam of light in the centre is really nice....

The Beach Boys...lol

some water playing atmosfere....

other clan of beach boys enjoying the water swimming while the sun is setting...

Sammy was too happy that he can't even open his mouth and smile...lol

OH NO!!! Bernard got caught by the sand!!!aARGH!!

a nice atmosfere looking restaurant but we didn't ate there...hahaha

Shadow of the Night...

on the next day we went to the cable car place....i forgotten wat is the name of the place already...

and just around the cable car area..the place is call Oriental Village....a very nice place which look like the fantasy type of place where we play on games....

the fountian of spring....nice scenery right?

the cable car station...we bought our tickets and waited till our turn...

before we went up we went around the village for some exploring...it was really a very nice place...

more of scenitic view of Oriental Village...

the hotel of Oriental Village..we wouldn't dare to even ask for the price...lol...

posing with the nice scenery...

Hey is this Japan? nah it's just one part of the village with Japan style of building.....

this is like Paradise to me!!!

another view of the hotel...

i wouldn't wan to miss out the chances to pose in this nice place...lol..

Bernard showing some love to the deer...

the animal part of the village....

OH this time is we are in CHINA!!! hahahah

another view of Japan...lol

after all the scenery taking and some posing finally is time to head up to the hill with cable car....

the 4 of us getting ready for some height phobia action....

this is the view on the top station...

some memorial pic of the mountain scenery...we are now 710 meters high...is really scary on the way up in the cable nearly all of us sweat our feet...

can see a wide range of sea view from there....

once again...US...

there is a bridge which connected to the other side of the mountain...we head there...my feet was really shaking cuz we are like damm high from sea level...

the end edge of the bridge....the bridge is shaky when we walk through it....lol....

nice scene of the mountain....

some panoramic view...this is the best i can do so far....

this too....

the view of the top of the top station...

This is so high from sea level...

after all the shaking and pics taking finally is time to go down...Here we go!!1

the only string that we rely on to support us...hahahaha

here we go!!! we are so high from the ground..the cable car in front looks so tiny....

we still on the way down....

reach something like a check point...hahahaha

on the way down is like not so scary....but on the way up was really scary..

Finally we reach the bottom already...

Me and Samurai with the fountain before we leave the village...

after this we had lunch in KFC then...

Sammy was too tired and he feel asleep at the balls...

after that we head to the Seventh Well but unfortunately i drop my camera on the water that time so i couldn't post the pics up of the last day...but its was a nice trip anyway...we enjoyed the breath taking nature of Langkawi to be release from college stress...

and the quote before we came to Langkawi is...

I NEED VACATION!!!

that's all for Langkawi Trip tour...

peace...

Short Musical Show at Paradise Hotel

2008-01-05T08:56:00.001-08:00

Finally i get to update my church Christmas event...it all happen on the 23rd of December 2007...hahahaha i still stating the date cuz somehow still got the feeling that i'm still in 2007...It all happens in Paradise Hotel...wan to take this chance to thank all who supported and encourage us...this is also my first time performing with the band...

We did a Short Musical Show...it all start of with a lit bit of acting about the story of Mary then some singing done in the interval by those that is chosen by our leader...the musical part is only a girl and me and my friends all 4 of us...

the starting part of our performance....

ATR man!!! all in RED!!

ATR once again...singing emoly...hahahaha
(form left : Daniel, Me and Amos)

the ending of our performance...

can see the crew that is working on the side...
Credit to Silas for all the sound checking....

after that we had free meal sponsor by Paradise Hotel. The meal was nothing much but the environment was really nice there...

posing post performance...

i did put make up on that day...hahahaha but still the eye liner is no dark enough....lol

Group photo of all involved...

after the meal we went to the beach and do some emo light shootings again...this time is all black figure...but it like it through is cool...

Overall the whole show goes really well...at least we did something for Christmas this year...i was really happy that it all work out great...
Thank God for all His help that we can make it so good...

AMEN

The New Beginning...

2008-01-01T08:31:00.000-08:00

It's has already ended the year of 2007..now is the new beginning of everything once again...but overall 2007 is a really been a great year cuz 7 is God's number...hahaha...2007 has been a breakthrough years for me to a lot of thing...there is a lot of things that i never dare to do and do b4...but this year i suddenly taken the step of faith and face it...WOW...i'm so proud of it...as usually there has been heaven and hell to has been go through everyday...friends has always been important to me without them there isn't much meaning anymore in this life but thank God i go through it all...this year 2008 is gonna a new year again with new aims , goals, dream and many more which is new...2007 is been a really good experience for me to face the more tough challenge that i'm gonna face this year...IS GONNA SHINE to a whole new beginning this year...Peace...

A very HAPPY SATURDAY!!!!

2007-11-19T02:08:00.000-08:00

Happy Saturday was an event organise by Kelvyn Yeang...overall is real good and nice event but is a bit hot in the afternoon part...so Rock!!! On as i take u to HAPPY SATURDAY!!!!

my friends going to the front to rock with UGLYMEN

Michael soloing...

a group of hot chicks with a cool finalling pose...

the cool Unlock Shakers in MJ's smooth criminal!!!

some stuns by them...

UGLYMEN dancing damm funny!!!hahahaha....

UGLYMEN promoting their so call banner...

later on some malay guys break dancing...this guy flaring....

the leader preparing the crew in stand by mode....

a jazz band form duno what school forget de...these best thing about this band is their drummer who is only 7 years old...Playing JAZZ!!!! one of the hardest genre of music to play...respect man!!

the one and only Christian metalcore band on that day...ARMY OF THREE!!!

them rocking hard on the stage...the emo bassist does a really nice swing with his guitar...too bad didn't capture it...

once again indian guy break dancing...

their leader with some head stand moves...

this is the best moves i seen so far in their performance...

some hot chicks doing some R N B dance...

one of the BABES!!! soloing....

chicks feeling hip hop...

the white shirt girl has a real cool emo hair..

one of the local writers who write in chinese...Schizzow!!!

He will still be showing us Graffiti Greatness!!!

cool pose by Schizzow....

hit the mic with the raps....

Six Strings Samurai rocking hard on the stage!!!

SSS!!!!

some hardcore actions by the metalcore gang during the perfomance of the metalcore band Oracle...

the Metalcore gang doing headbanging below the stage....

Metalcore gang rampaging around....

Lastly also ends with the Metalcore gang causing some chaos down the stage....

BLACK ON TO QUEENSBAY!!!!

2007-11-11T03:24:00.000-08:00

Last sunday me and friend with all black we
when to Queensbay for lunch and we had no idea
what
to do after lunch and we went out and shoot some emo pics...

This is my meal the Kenny Roger's quarter pounder...

and our drinks the four season delight....

This our first shadow shoot outside QB is damm hot!!

A damm crazy jumping post..

another crazy jumping pose but my friend's pose on the right
damm G...hahaha

after that we stare at the sky with any idea of what to do
next...

seaside emotion....

an act cool pose in front of the sun make it looks cool in all Black!!

another act cool pose in black

Finally we got tired of posing de and decide to sit down to take a rest after that we headed home de...credits to JC for taking all these photos for bearing with us under the sun...